“There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all.”
It had been a really great week for me and still I wanted more. I do sometimes feel kind of greedy when it comes to moments like these. You know, these are the moments I live for, I guess these are the memories everyone lives for. All the way back, I was thinking what if I was not able to come home, what if I was not able to make it? I would have missed out on all these things. On one hand I was happy that I did and on the other hand I was sad that it will have to come to an end, well at least temporarily. Still it had to end and I would have to leave soon. With mixed emotions I walked till home. All the way still wishing for things that probably might not be granted. still wishing though, who knows a miracle might just happen.
So, there was I, lying in my bed and thinking, whishing and praying if only I had one more day. We talked on the phones, and all the while I was wishing, if only I could see her face one more time. I so wanted that to happen, that I even made a pact with God that if he gives me another chance to see her, then I will not ask for anything more but be a very good boy through the year. Well, it might sound funny but that's what I did.
So, I woke up in the morning still wishing if something happens. A miracle maybe. And guess what happened. Yeah, you can call it a miracle, because I call it miracle. Trust me, miracles do happen and I saw it. I was supposed to leave at 1 pm. Everything was set, and my uncle was supposed to get my ticket done, which he forgot to. So, there i was, all packed up and ready to go without ticket. After a long discussion with mom and dad and they said, it'll be better if I stayed for one more day, then get a ticket and leave the next night. So, all sorted and ticket for the next day taken. I could believe my luck; I was not even sure whether to call it luck or a miracle. Whatever you might wanna call it, it sure made me happy, ecstatic to say the least. So, my prayers answered and I am ready to meet her once again. So we met, talked and spent time with each other till evening. It was quite cold to be honest and I, with my sinus problem, did not seem to mind anything at all. Maybe it was because all that mattered was us and nothing else. Yeah, we did create memories. We sure did.
But as they say, every good thing must come to an end. So did it had to. It was time to say goodbye. I wasn't ready, neither was she. But it had to be done. So, I went to drop her. Being with her gave me so much happiness that I wished I just could stop everything right there and stay in that moment forever. Hmmmmm... But i know that's just a bit bookish, still that's how I felt. I do sometimes, wish for and feel things I usually bookish, or even Korean filmish. Sometimes everyone is entitled to wish for those moments though. These are memories and the sweeter, the better it is.
So, we reached her house, I am still in no mood to let her go, though she didn't want to go either. There was no other option for us as well. After all we do live separate lives and with our family. So, with a bit of sadness and profound joy, we bid goodbye. The goodbye though was said in a special way. I told you I always hated goodbyes, but this goodbye meant a lot more than a farewell. This goodbye was more of a promise that she will be waiting for me, a promise that she will be true to me. It was a promise that she will miss me. Every goodbye has its own story and so did this one too. This Goodbye tells a story of a kid who grew up to be a man, to take care of someone. The kid who always needed to be taken care of has finally grown. This goodbye showed this kid, who has always been lost in self-sympathy that he indeed is beautiful the way he is. This goodbye brought tears to my eyes; the only difference was the feeling. This time I was rather happy than sad. In short, you could say that his goodbye came as a blessing and a realization. Had it not been for this goodbye, I don't think I would be smiling right now.
So, goodbyes said and I am ready to leave. Yeah.... once again, leaving has always been hard and I did not expect this one to be any easier either. I however was kinda prepared for it, so this time I was in control. And I don't know why, but I had this feeling that I'd be back sooner rather than later lifted the gloom. Reached the railway station and this time around, I really did not need anyone to drop me as well. I guess the past month has made me a bit stronger than what I was.
Waiting for the train, talking on the phone, the chill in the air and that certain feeling of loneliness amidst the crowd inside. Hmmmmmmm….. I knew it was going to be a long journey for me. Some goodbyes leave a void, so did it. Goodbyes always do. But this time around it was not one of those goodbyes that brought tears and sadness. Of course sadness will always be there, this time however it was much easier to take it.
This is how the week had been to me. Oh yeah, and Forgot to tell you, during this weeks’ time, Liverpool FC played 3 matches, won all of them and Suarez scored in all of them. All in all this week had been really good to me, I couldn't have asked for a better way to bid farewell to 2012 and welcome 2013. Everything about this was so special; I honestly don’t have any words to describe it. You know, I am not good at all these things, but I can deffo assure you that this week has been one of the best of my life so far. It certainly had its ups and downs and there were times when I thought things could have been better, nothing however is perfect and I did not expect this week to be either. I always prepared myself for moments like these, so it was okay. And I am ready to let go of all those moments for the sake of memories we created. For the first time in my life, I have embraced happiness more than sadness. Another change in me, I should say and this one too, is pretty welcomed.
So, now I am in the train and set to embark on a new chapter and continue my stay in Dahod. I know a lot of new things will come my way and I am ready to take everything that life throws and pick up what's good and leave what bad. So, I am ready to be the man. Oh well, once again.
Holidays over and it's back to work again. It will be hectic but I will still take time out to continue the Diary. Till then stay safe and take care.
Adios!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S. - I still miss the goodbye. I wish I didn't have to say it, but if I have to say it then I would want to say it the way I said this Goodbye.
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