TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

Hola,

Do you feel you know me well enough?

Do you care enough for me to do something for me?

If  YES…………..

Then I'd like you to be honest with me and tell me when you think I'm wrong. I might never ask you or never even bother to think that I may be wrong somewhere, but as a friend I always expect you to tell me where I am wrong.

I have always lived in my own perfect world, where I make myself believe that I rule it. It’s the world I have created where I am right no matter what. In this world, it’s either my way or the highway.

I’d like you to come into this world, make it your own and change it for my own good.

If there is something you don’t like about me, just tell me on my face. Don’t be afraid that I might get angry or not talk to you for doing that, but yes, if there is something wrong with me then I would always expect you to say it. I expect you to hide nothing, especially your feelings towards me.

You won’t help me neither would you help yourself by hiding it. Because when you hide your feelings it means you are saying you don't care enough to help me become a better person that I'd like to be.

It means you are saying that you are okay with me walking towards the direction which will eventually be continuing in a path that could be disparaging not only for me but also for people around me. For the people I love, people like you perhaps!!!!!!!!!!!!

It means you are telling me that you are okay with me constantly being so egocentric and so selfish, which I really am and you don’t want me to transform into someone better than what I had been.

It means you are okay with me fending for myself even though you know that I need a bit of guidance and a whole lot of support.

It means you are saying you don't care for me enough to confront me. Even if it means fighting, don’t hesitate to do it. After all, friends always look out for each other and I always expect you to look out for me.

I can't and will not promise you I'll always understand and oblige to it. I am just as much a frail being and you know I like to pretend I'm always right. Your words might hurt me, make me angry or sad for a while, which I am sure I will be, but if it’s for my own good then I always expect you to be honest.

Things might turn out to be bad for few days, weeks or maybe months, but if you really are concerned enough I need you to tell me the truth even when I seem rather uninterested in hearing it and even when I don’t pay attention. I need you to show me clearly just how self centered I am and I need you to be patient with me when you do it.

I need you to be someone who is willing to deal with me and everything that comes along with me, good or bad and still love me for who I am. Yeah!!!!!! Love me for who I am but don’t be blind when you do. I always need a second opinion about myself and I need you to be my second opinion. I don’t expect you to correct my mistakes; I however do expect you to tell me when I make them.

I need you to support me in front of others when I am wrong at the same time however I need you to tell me off when we are alone.

I need you to be someone who’d accept me for who I am and guide me to be a better person than what I had been yesterday. I need you to be my friend. A friend I will be forever grateful to.

I can’t and will not promise you that I will always keep you happy; you can however rest assured that I will forever be indebted to you for everything.

Muchas Gracias.

Adios!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONFESSION: LIVERPOOL AND I

Today I am feeling that extra bit of KOP inside me, first it’s because LFC won yesterday night, with only youngsters playing. Feeling kinda proud to be honest.
Things haven’t been very good for past few seasons for LFC and I have been asked this question of “Why Liverpool FC”??
“Why support a team that hardly plays Europa?”
Sometimes it’s hard to answer all these questions, especially to people who support teams that are at the top. I call them “Glory hunters” you might not agree with it, but that’s how I see them. It does annoy me more often than not. Okay, yeah I don’t answer people around, especially not the random ones. But yes I do like people close to me, to know how strongly I feel for Liverpool.

Yeah I love Liverpool FC, more than a lot of things in this world, some might not understand it. But I expect you to understand it even if you don’t support LFC.

Crying when Liverpool wins a major trophy does not make me a baby. It doesn't. I cry. I always do.

If we win and I choose to watch MoTD, please don’t annoy me with stupid questions.That's for my family actually!!!!!!!!!!!!

If Liverpool lose, NEVER say the words "it’s only a game" This is Liverpool friggin FC WE'RE TALKING ABOUT. There is NEVER "just a game."

If Liverpool loses a big match and you wanna laugh about it, then go somewhere else. If you do that in front of me, I might just as well punch you on the face.

Liverpool win or lose a match doesn’t matter; I always sleep with my Liverpool shirt on matchdays.
My Liverpool shirt and socks are much better than some of Armani suits that you might own.

Make fun of Liverpool in front of me, and I will not take it kindly. Even if I don’t say anything right there, I’d for sure keep my distance from you from that day onwards. If you are a Scum, then don’t expect me to speak to you ever again.

 If I have kids, I will name them: Girl; Stevena, Martina or Louisa, Boy; Agger, Stewart or Lucas.

My wall is full of LFC posters and if you have a problem with it, I advice you not to enter the room instead of saying something about it. 
Regardless of how good I actually am at playing football I’ll always wear my LFC kit when I do.

No matter how bad I am at writing about football I’d keep on writing with a hope that maybe one day the Liverpool official website will read it.
If ever I get a chance to move to UK, the most important factor would be how far from Anfield it is, not where my friends/family live. And if living outside Liverpool is required, the number of Liverpool fans in the area is the most important factor.
If I choose to watch Liverpool win against Milan to win the CL title I shall. I always do.
It will always be the Liverpool badge on my phone. Not changing it. Say whatever you might want to. But it’s not gonna happen.
No texting or call during a match. Call me and I’ll rip your head off. End of story. I can make few exceptions on texting, ummmmmmmm… depending on the person.
If any of your family, friends are Manchester United fan, don’t be surprised to end us in a fight. The worst I can handle is Chelsea and Arsenal. I don't mingle with Scums. Scums can stay away from me.
I would turn gay for Gerrard and Agger. Yeah!!! Shocked, they are awesome like that.
If anyone ever says that Wayne Rooney is good, I'd just turn around and walk away. Disgusting. That’s it.
The photo in my wallet is supposed to be of Liverpool crest and my parents. Lame but it’s a fact that I do keep these two pictures in my wallet all the time.
I love Luis Suarez like my own. Insult him and I will take it as an insult on myself, which would not be pretty. When you are in front of me, just make sure you keep away from him.
A girl in LFC jersey is always hotter than any other girl.

If I want the new LFC kit at the beginning of the season, whether I have the money or not I’ll buy it. I don’t listen to anyone then.

I start and end the matchdays by listening to “You’ll never walk alone”.

"You'll never walk alone" can sometimes be used instead of "I love you." This song is just so inspiring and honestly, I can use it in any way I want. It’s a part of my life now and one of the reasons why I love this club.
If you want to debate and argue over LFC matters bring it on. But don’t come up with those stupid and half baked knowledge, it freaks me off. If you wanna debate, first get your facts right and then do it.

"I LOVE LIVERPOOL". Because I bleed Red for a reason and the reason is Liverpool.

Just a few things that you should know about Liverpool and I, I know you probably be a bit annoyed now. So I will take a leave. See you soon with something a bit more significant and interesting than this. Till then take care and stay safe.

Adios!!!!!!!!

DEATH: THE INEVITABLE TRUTH

 
I had been sick for about two weeks now and haven't been able to write anything. First, I did not have the strength to sit in front of computer and second, I just couldn’t get my thoughts processed in a proper manner. The only thought stemming inside my mind, when will I be fine again. This is so friggin annoying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Two weeks of no football, no writing and not doing anything can really take its toll. Now I am almost frustrated, but a bit better now.
So, I will take this time and use it to the fullest. And no, I will not be playing, just writing.
I don’t fall sick very often, but when I do then it’s always a serious one. So this time as well, started with a fever, which stayed for about ten days and just when I thought I am getting better, my ear problem, a recurring one, came back to trouble me once again.
The ear problem has hung around for a long time now, been seeing specialist for it. All they do is give me some ear drop or antibiotics. Tired of using all that to be honest.
I almost forgot, I was not here to talk about my fever or ear problems. Apologies for that.
Well, when I fall sick, which as you know is a rarity, all kind of thoughts crawl inside my mind. Why?? For one reason that whenever I fall sick I either need to be hospitalized or have to take bed rest for 3 weeks. You can say I have a knack of quality illness which needs the advice of a specialist more often than not.
It’s these times when I just can’t help but think that I could die any time now. Funny?? Sometimes I find it funny too and it, in fact is a bit funny coming out from a lad. For one simple reason, I always believed that lads are supposed to be tough. Well, I am tough on most things but not this one. This has been my weakness for as long as I remember.
So now, back on the thoughts, death to be precise. It depresses me sometimes when I think that I am going to die one day. Yes, I am going to and I accept it. I might love my time out here but I just have to leave one day.
Depressing for everyone but not avoidable, it’s the reality that everyone must face, unless of course you are God incarnated like in those Hindu mythology (No puns intended to anyone though!!).
The thought of death brings few questions in my head, every friggin time.
How many people will come at my funeral?
How many will actually cry because they are sad to see me leave?
How many will visit my grave every year?
Kind of stupid questions to ask, I however cannot help it because I don’t think I have done anything worth remembering neither have I been a good influence to anyone for that matter.
For most of my life I’ve been a loner and hardly socialized, so you probably understand where and why these questions are coming up.
Momma always said it’s not good to think or talk about all this, sometimes I just can’t help but to indulge in a bit of it. It’s not because I am a killjoy or something, but mostly I get to these thoughts because I know it’s one reality that I cannot avoid no matter how much I wanted to.
It does depress me sometimes, but I have learnt to live with it, I guess.
Everyone is certain to leave this world one day or the other, no one can stop it. So why not try to live it while we have it. Yes!!!!!!!! It’s coming from a lad who has been more or less engrossed in self pity for all his life. I do love life though, no matter where it leads me to.
You are born, you grow up, you make friends and do things which you like and one day it’ll all end. No matter how many times you tell yourself that you are going to die one day, when the day comes it’ll always shock you and put you to a grave sadness and a sense of loss. That’s an assurance.
There are things we don’t want to happen, but have to accept and learn to live with it. There are things we don’t want to know but have to learn and there are people we can’t live without, but have to let go. That’s the painful truth. The older and wiser you grow, the more people you know are gone. Like a friend said “Life isn't meant to be pretty so don't expect the end of it to be pretty either. We live to die”. No matter what you do, say or think you’re going to go the other side one day. But life would still go on with or without you, sounds harsh but it’s veracity and there is probably no other way of putting this as well. That brings me to a question, would there be any difference after you're gone?
As the old saying goes “You come into the world crying and everyone else around you laugh and smile, you should spend your life in a way that when you leave, you leave with a smile on your face and tears in everyone’s eyes.”
(Don't remember the exact phrase, heard it when I was very young. Apologies if it's wrong somewhere!!!!!!!)

Every time you wake up in the morning ask yourself, what good things am I going to do today. When the sun goes down it will take a part of your life and I am sure you would want that part to be cherished rather than loathed. It’s your life, spend it wisely, take your time and think about how you have spent your life so far. Take time out to reflect on your actions. Then ask yourself. What would change the world around you…… Your life or your death?