NEW YEAR RESOLUTION????? HMMMMMM…. MAYBE NOT.

The New Year is here and everyone’s busy making new resolutions. I am sure making them is not a thing of the past and you all do it with just as much excitement as I or everybody else used to do some time back. This is one thing about New Year’s that I like. Whether or not we change forever or stick to it forever but these resolutions stay in the head for at least a month or two and while it stays, we only do good than bad. So, a month or two of complete goodness never hurts and it never will. So here I am with some resolutions, as you might wanna call it, bucket list as some others call it or just simply, few things that I wanna do this year.

The previous year has been a hugely mixed one in terms of happiness, sadness and also success. After a long wait, I finally got myself a decent job, a kind of job that attracts respect from people. Yeah, it is the fact. I am proud about it, but not arrogant. Then there were few things that I never expected would happen. Some were my mistake while others I guess they were just planned by the guy above. So, there was not much anyone can do about.

The other good thing about new year is that, no matter how bad the previous one treated me or how bad it was, I always look up to the new year, with great expectations. Sometimes expecting too much, most of the times though just keeping it real. This year is no different from all the others. I look up to it and I hope that this year would be good to me.

So…. Here are few things that I must do and follow this year. Hmmmmmmm…. With hope that I succeed though, here I go.

First of all, I gotta be a good family member. Yes, I do. I have never been a good son, a good brother or even a good cousin. But this year, I am planning to change it all. It has been quite some time that I have not opened up to my family members as much as should have. Yeah, I had my reasons for that. It’s all going to change this year however. I have made a promise to myself that I will be what everyone wants me to be. I will keep in touch with my siblings every day, call mom and dad every day and do things that a son or a brother should do.

I will work harder towards my goal of becoming a football columnist. I had been writing them for a while now and I take pride in the effort that I had put last year and thankfully, I did get my due recognition. But this year, I will work harder, much more effort and keep on improving.

I will put sincere efforts at my work. No matter what happens in my life I will not let that affect my work at the bank. I will try my best to keep them both apart from each other and let them not get in a way. So far I have succeeded in doing that and I hope and plan to continue working in that manner. Though a lot doesn’t not depend on me, but things that does will be taken care of.

I will be strong enough to face everything that comes my way. I had been a cry baby for most part of the last year. Especially when I got transferred to Dahod. Those were hard times but I should have been stronger. I mean, had this not happened, I wouldn’t have learnt so much about life and other things. I feel stronger and I am prepared to face anything now. So, no more a cry baby, but a man now. That’s it.

I will not be afraid to speak about what I like and don’t, what I want and don’t and how I feel about things and how I don’t. I had been of the kind to keep everything inside, not letting it out. It seems I had been holding things for too long now and there seems to be no more space left inside my head. No more hiding, no more running away from things, just facing them the way they are and learn whatever I can from them.

No more running away from my mistakes. This is the year to just man up. If I make any mistakes, then I will just own up to it and face the consequence rather than keeping it all inside and hurting people around me. I have realized that it’s much better to speak right out than to hurt people by hiding it. The realization came a bit too late, but better late than never. So it will be done and I will do it my way.

No more sulking in self-sympathy this year. I think I have done enough of that. Yeah, I don’t like the way I look, most us don’t do. I don’t like how I am, most of us don’t either. So I am not alone. Not every cry and whine about it. So won’t I. I will accept myself the way I am, be proud of who I am and be happy for all that I have. After all, a lot of people don’t even have what I do and there are millions out there who’d do anything to be where I am and get what I have. So one word for myself. “Stay happy”.

I will try to be more considerate about things. For too long, I had been doing things the way it pleased me. It’s all going to change now. This is the year of “Think before you act” for me. So I am going to put myself in their shoes before doing anything. This one’s going to be hard and I might fail more often than not, however I will keep trying.

I will be strong, yes I will be. in everything,, be it my decisions, my feelings or anything that concerns life. Again, this is the year of “Staying strong”. So will I, another thing which does not promise to be easy but I will try my best.

I will accept things the way they are. I will not promise myself that I will not make any mistakes. I know I will. I will make lots and lots of mistakes, knowing or unknowingly. I will face them and learn from them. I will make sure that the same thing is not done again.

I will apologize. To everyone who I have hurt in the past year. For whoever they were to me and for whoever they still are to me, hurting anyone was never my intention and I know I have hurt a lot of people while completing the 12 months of last year. I will apologize until I am forgiven and then make sure that they are never hurt because of something I have done. It is a promise to myself.

I will love myself. This might sound a bit theatrical or dramatic. But I belong to the set of people who are not happy with themselves; I guess you all know it. So this year, I will look at what is good rather than bad and try to work on the confidence and self-respect that I had lost for some time now. For one thing is certain, if I don’t love myself then I cannot love others and if I wanna love others then I will have to start from my own self. So this year will mark the beginning of it.

I will try my best to keep people around me happy. By that I don’t mean every random person, but people who love me. I had been selfish for far too long and this time, I will live for others. As Homer Simpson says “Everyone else just as important as I am and in order to save myself, I will have to save others”. This year will be the year when I try my best to bring smile to everyone who matters. Though I am not the best at it, but I know I can pull it off if I wanted to and I will.

LIVERPOOL. You’ll still be in my heart and “You’ll never walk alone” will still be the song. Nothing’s gonna change between us and it will never change. Win, lose or draw. LIVERPOOL now and forever.

I will be rising up again, like a SKYSCRAPER and I always will. I know times can and will break me and bring me down but I will make sure that every time I hit the bottom, I will rise up.

I will read more of the Bible, now that I am in a place where I don’t have a church to go to. My family and everyone around me had been worried about it as well. Though not for them or anyone else, but for myself. I will do it. I am going to spend time with the Bible. Though I won’t promise myself that it will be lots but I will spend just as much as I can. This is the time when I indulged in a bit of my relation with God. It needs a bit of amendments and I will take the necessary steps to fix it. Yes, I will.

And most of all, I will be a better man. I know what and who I had been last year and through all these years. I never really tried to change it or learn from things that happened. This is the year of learning and improving, taking one step at a time and being better than what I had been yesterday.

So, this is it. Not a very long list, not easy things to do, but surely not impossible. I gotta believe in myself and take things as they come. No worries about things that might happen in the future but taking one day at a time.

This will be the year of changes, this will be the year of learning, this will be the year of improving and most of all this will be the year of being “A BETTER MAN”.

So now the resolutions done, this is the time for me to take a leave. But as I always said, I will see you once again. Till then take care and stay safe.

Adios!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. - Try making a list of things to do and things not to do. It has its fun.